Do I love you too much?

Sometimes I'm afraid
I love you too much;
Like when you reject my calls
Or ignore my tremulous touch
Begging you to see me;
Too look at me
And actually see
Me.

Sometimes I'm afraid
That I'll lose you too soon;
Before the dawn comes,
Before the sun, at noon,
Reaches it's peak;
In the night,
Do you search for
Me?

Sometimes I'm afraid
That you see nothing in me;
We pass the time together,
Because, rather than be free,
You're with me instead.
Sometimes I think
You need out of your head
To see
That I am
Dead
Already.

Sometimes I'm afraid.
What's the real reason
That you keep me secret?
Is it treason
To wonder what you're thinking
I can't help but feel
This heavy, sinking
Feeling.
My head is reeling
Trying to dig up the truth.
Your indifference is ruthless.

Sometimes I'm afraid
That I'll never know
What made you turn away from me;
What made your heart
Start to grow
So cold.
How long will I last
Knowing how broken this mould
That made us is?

Not long at all.

I'm going to fall
Deep into depression
Wishing I could see
Why I can't love you
As little as you
Love me.